LAW SCHOOL AND PROCRASTINATION

One thing i hate and despise about myself is my lackadaisical attitude and the deep rooted procrastination. Being a law student doesn't change anything AT ALL. I was expecting some positive changes alongside with the change of study environment especially when being a student in a prestigious and highly respected university in Malaysia .

WHO ON EARTH can tell me what is going wrong ???

Despite having positive changes i am actually slacking behind. Ever since i stepped my foot into university , i become demotivated , lazy and less enthusiastic about incidents happening around me.

the major issue now is HOW CAN I SURVIVE FOUR FREAKING YEARS OF LAW SCHOOL ??
I got myself in a total mess by deciding to take up LAW.  I regret from time to time which i think most of law students do. However, in the edge of giving up , i still find a little spark in the small corner of my heart to pursue law. ARGHHH .. at times , i just hate myself . I feel like i have passion for nearly everything be it for law, medic, engineering , music . I don't really have a strong stand on what i really want to do in the future and this is one of the reason why i choose law. A secure path ?

Lawyer is a professional job and it actually opens up all doors. I have heard cases about lawyers becoming a designer, businessman, event planner , blablabla.. So conclusively , lawyer is eligible to pursue a career in any of the working field as long that it is not related to science.

GOSH, HOW MUCH I MISS BLOGGING . a channel to express my doubts, frustration , desperation ....... and i realized my english proficiency actually deteriorates :0 despite my pursuing subject are all conducted in English. SEE THIS IS WHY I AM SO LOST.

Today is CHRISTMAS DAY. It is suppose to be a festive season where 19year old's like me are suppose to be outside celebrating , not sitting in front of a computer complaining to the... computer,
Christmas this year also marks the end of my Study break which i didnt study AT ALL.

I actually saw one of my batchmate's facebook post stating that her family and friends suggested that she has to take a break from her incessant studies, but she feels guilty and went back to study after 5 minutes of break :0 ME on the other hand , CONTRADICTS with her case . I won't feel guilty for not studying *until the day before exam. this attitude is so deep rooted and has been a part of me since like FOREVER.

If christmas Wishes do come true, I wish that
...I can survive law school and achieve the minimum pointer for my scholarship so that it won't be terminated and of coz I hope that odds will always be in favour for all my beloved family and friends and a blessing of health and wealth for those i love and care about,

Merry Christmas and a happy new year in advanced. New year, new resolutions*as if resolutions actually works*

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