2011 is a NIGHTMARE !!

Yeah ... inside my heart i m dying... this is the first time ever i feel like dying..all in a sudden life is just so miserable nobody to pour my heart out.....nobody there to listen u cry .... nobody there to fool around with u ....u dunno how it feels ..its just the same as the end of the world ..
Yeah right ..things turned out to be exactly what i expected and wish for ..what to complain about ??
BUT I HATE MY LIFE NOW !!! seriously hate it from my heart's core !!! its not that my classmates were not good .. its just that i felt so lonely T.T like a tree in a dessert .. standing alone ..nobody around.. i miss my gang "Forever 10" haiz...
I dont feel the importance of friendship until i lost them... its like falling from heaven to hell ..the environment changes ..the laughter gone ..living among all strangers !I know i could make some new friends ..but u know, its never the same from my previous gang ... all the topics we chit chat of its different !!!and i have a weird feeling that i dont really like to make new friends nowadays ..  living among Forever 10  for 2 yrs ..and suddenly standing on my own .. i sure need some time to adapt but i know this will be though ... being into S4B is like a black man walking into a white people society .u know what i mean.. its like i am the Invader !! haha /.believe it or not .i've been hoping to study in S4B in 2010..but now NOPE !! how stupid am i last year huh !
another 2011 Nighmare is PPS (Pengaws Pusat Sumber)
seriously why am i soo stupid to ever interview for PPS ??everyday duty..duty...duty... i have to miss a lot of lessons because of PPS and its F4 now !! F4 is totaly different from F3 ! how can i miss anything(although i always fall asleep in class=])not to leave out the missing of my tag !i need to pay RM9 and get deduct 2 marks just because of my stupid tag !!!!
i m going to be insane sooner or later !! i will go crazy !! i wanted to scream !! i wanted to shout as loud as i can !! but how ??? !!!!! BLOGGING !!!!! the keyboard is nearly ruined by me !!!! i type so hard and the markings on the keyboard kinda faded..but i dont care !!!!

I FREAKING MISS 2010 !! and my GANG !! i know we can still eat together and hang out together .. but i dont know how long can this last .. mayb i will change in 2011 ?? Maybe our topic is different ?Maybe... i am not LAME CHOP anymore??? but at least for now i am still the lame AMANDA =]

I MISS U GUYS =\]
I MISS KHAW QING LING'S LAUGHTER
I MISS XIN YING HIAO HIAO POSTURE 
I MISS HOW LUEN GUI SCOLD QL WHEN SHE TALKS WITH HER MOUTH FULL
I MISS JOEY CHIT CHATING ABOUT KPOP WITH ME  ALL DAY LONG
I MISS MICHELLE SCOLDING ME LAME 
I MISS VIVIENNE FRENCH FRIES !
I MISS CHIA YING'S FREAKING HILARIOUS IMIATION
I MISS SAMANTHA'S "TING WO JIANG"
AHHAHAHAHAHAHA !!!MISS U GUYS LA =]=] HAPPY 2011 =]


GUESS THAT ALL I CAN DO NOW IS TO KEEP MOVING FORWARD=]=] JIA YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!